I did talk to Em yesterday. She understood how I felt. I'm not walking away from her. I'm going to see if I can't hold out for a while.
It's different from the last time I was kept away... but I don't know if it's different enough.
I have so much more to ponder and to say on this but I have to get to work.
I only wish I knew the whole truth of the first time it happened. Even if it hurt, it would have made me a better person. I don't even get to know if that one ended up happy. I hope she found someone who adores her that she adores in turn.
I've told Em that I love her. She laughs, but she doesn't say it back.
Here's your sign, fool.
Just a little bit longer. She's too good to turn away from without some bit of a fight.
1 comment:
for some people, saying "I love you" means admitting weakness and need and desire. Sometimes things have been so bad that desire/weakness is a dangerous thing. I will back you 100% as you do what you feel is right.
judi
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